I am So Frustrated

Take this life for instance-

My heart throbs and bleeds passion, but my words are at a halt.

Of what do I have to blame?

This personality is hungry for something that simply isn’t.

Is it not?

A pessimist’s words are as monotonous as a lecture on biology-

Am I dissecting an issue to an insignificant degree?

Am I digesting unneeded and unnecessary information?

Lord, I am hungry for something that isn’t advertised on T.V.

I am starved for something that isn’t sugarcoated with extra drama,

Or even placated into a “happily Ever After” ending.

I am craving a pure experience.

I am longing for a longing for something.

I am in need for a purpose to fight.

I am in need for an outcome, a light at the end of the tunnel.

Take me there.

I see failures

On the streets,

In the halls,

And in the mirror.

I only see perfection in books.

I only see perfection when I don’t look at all.

And when I see no flaws, it is always only in You.

Strip me of my pride.

Spare me my faulty insecurities.

I am yours.

Though, I am also human-

Overtaken by desire and indulgences

And unfair conditions I am forced to deal with.

I am drowning in a sea of desire.

I am choking on the water of lust.

I yearn for ½ of you only so that I may stay sane.

Lord, but I hurt without you.

I see in black and white without your beauty.

I am a soldier, already too scared and tired to continue.

Am I too weak to wait?

Patience is far too hard a battle to fight when you’re on a different field.

Spring Break is dangerous. People feel like they have to rebel just to have fun. Ugh, even I fell into that fruitless hole. I'm spent, done, whatever...
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